This afternoon dermatology office calls about two moles I had to have biopsied on Monday. Mole on my back has mild atypia and just needs to be watched. The mole on my thigh needs surgery.
The mole on my thigh is not cancer, but is classified as severely atypical and called an “atypical melanocytic proliferation”, which can become cancer, and the margins were not clear. I am grateful and sad and frustrated. I am weary from having chunks constantly carved out of me, some little, some larger, and grateful that they are watching and addressing these moles. I am not a good sport. I am worried and scared. My soul knows I need simply to trust in God. My emotions want to run wild.
For your own sake, please read this information below:
Here are the statistics from the http://www.cancer.gov/cancertopics/factsheet/Risk/moles. "About 2 in 10,000 Americans—more than 70,000 people—develop melanoma. More than 800,000 Americans alive today have been diagnosed with melanoma...One in ten adults have dysplastic nevi. Researchers estimate that the chance of melanoma is about ten times greater for someone with more than five dysplastic nevi than for someone who has none, and the more dysplastic nevi a person has, the greater the chance of developing melanoma."
As I understand it, a melanoma can arise from a mole, though more likely to arise from a dysplastic nevi, and a melanoma can also sometimes appear from just ordinary plain skin.
I have so many risk factors, as many of us do—family members with many moles and/or skin cancer, many moles myself, many dysplastic nevi myself, a melanoma myself, prior sun exposure from youth through adulthood, prior use of tanning beds..
Dear God, I am grateful to have my lab results and that nothing is cancer. Help me to focus on an attitude of gratitude and to work through the weariness, sadness, and frustration. Thanks for listening. All truly is well, and I am blessed.