Today I have a freshly healing wound on my right palm. It wasn't another melanoma but it wasn't benign either. It is a "wait and watch" spot now. I am blessed to have great doctors who carefully help me watch. Some days I feel like cancer is pursuing me. Other days, I can move forward in other areas of my life and cancer isn't the focus.
It seems important to process the worries and losses, to work through them, but not to wallow either. Sometimes I feel like I actually appreciate life's little moments because of the cancer. It is a moment-by-moment balancing act.